yeowch

random muses

If life stopped moving for one second, we'd notice and stop to think. But it doesn't stop, so neither do we and thus.. we run forever, never stopping, never thinking. I'm in a musing frame of mind right now. It doesn't come often.. but heck i'm not about to psycho-analyse the whys, hows & etceteras -i chose not to do psychology for a reason:D

Life is really very good. And it's about to get better. But like my stats lecturer said once (meaning yesterday): When you're at the top, where else have you got to go (after a while) but down again? He was talking about exam results & such, but it's by no means restricted to that. It's really awful to think that some ppl will spend the majority of their existence in a pool of cool-lukewarm emotions, subject to attacks of depression and fits of pride.

I would love to go back in time to interview the best of the best. Notice how they're all dead. The brainiest.. most inspiring.. most courageous.. the self sacrificers.. well ok, there are a few of them hanging around but wherever they are they've mastered hide 'n' seek well.

On a more down-to-earth note, uni is grinding along. I've made a couple of friends whom i can be my dork self around, who have the potential to become very close like waz or mands or jan. I've switched off from the socializing hub that's still raging as i type. I had many naive pre-conceived notions of uni life that I'm mighty reluctant to let go of. I dreamt of a faster, more exciting, freer version of high school. But it isn't that. It's really difficult to describe. All i know is, I miss high school -when I get a break for nostalgia that is- plus the communal feeling that went with it.

On the love front nothing is happening. It's pretty tragic. Oh well, I'll live:) It's certainly proof of how western I've become as i discussed this with grams not too long ago and she said that typically, the Chinese feel none of this fluff til after uni grad and the attainment of a stable income:D It's tricky, trying to debate whether you should continuing trying for a person. As a girl once said in New Internationalist(mag) "It's easy to fall in love, but very difficult to endure it". Ok that's it. Time to engage in more pressing matters ie. a cup of milo followed by a steaming shower.. yes i'll go do that:)

posted by "/umin @ 1:47 PM