yeowch

the sweetest thing..

.. is having a crush - *better clarify myself*- I have a crush!!:D I've known him for 5 years now without knowing him at all, for the frank reason I've never gotten past a "hello" to him. Why would i suddenly notice him now?? Well coz he's one of the precious few decent christian guys left on this planet -that's close to my age. He is soo sweet! I've only ever met him at church, and as he goes to a diff church normally, I only see him on special occasions (e.g. Easter) which equates to a grand total of about 4 times a year :'(

Really I shouldn't notice this guy. But I do. And now that the crush cycle has begun I might as well ride it out. It's wonderful:O Having a crush is like being in a dream.. and he's such a good person to dream about:) he's not 'hot' cute; he's 'adorable' cute..with the softest eyes.. young children love him. And he's so humble. Do you know how hard it is to find humble guys??!! It's close to impossible around here. I don't want to dissect him ~ a person I don't even know yet. But if we could just move past that "hello". Sooo close to getting past that horrid greeting each time we walk past each other. But we just never talk. It's frustrating. I can't picture our friendship being solidified thru msn or phone or outings coz noone arranges anything. Optimistic aren't i?:P

The funny things is that just as I thought the current guy drought couldn't get any worse, 3 other cuties went to church besides him these past couple a' days. But none has caught my eye the way he has. He's not cuter than they are, or maybe even as exciting. But our hearts work in funny ways. And for him, I'm going to step outside my comfort zone & break that debilitating shyness -in this case :) starting today. If not today I'd have to wait til June to see him and maybe not even then if i have work. Not cool. *praying I won't lose my nerve* Let's see what happens..

posted by "/umin @ 5:53 AM