Fruity weather
This chill is dehibernating all my winter impulses.. like layering. On everything. Not just clothes, but doonas, toast (or food in general), decorations, colouring in, everything! And colour. Lots and lots of warm, bright colours. Porridge. Waking up late. Curling up. Good music. And ..even thoughts of a heaven-sent partner to cuddle up with.It doesn't help of course, that I'm so bad at signalling how i really feel. Nor helpful that, I don't actually know how i feel and whether my feelings have any element of romance in them. Boy, this reminds me of high school emo entries againT.T What i do know is that, I really hate uncertainty. I hate the thought that one guy can like you, but you know you can't return his feelings. And my pet peeve is huge age gaps. Probably more people than ever are tolerant of being able to marry someone 8+ years older/younger than them now and I'm perfectly happy if this was the case with my friends, but i personally cannot consider anyone over 8 years older. I really perceive them as either 1) an uncle 2) if not, a dad. 3) unmentionable as a contestant in the romance stakes
On a brighter note, our recent church conference was very encouraging. My faith's strengthened; and last night, while listening to a taping of a church conference in Malaysia my friend went to, saw how tender and wonderful Jesus was in how He dealt with others. Here was the creator weeping and communing with His created - I'm thinking of the story of Lazarus & his sisters Martha and Mary in particular. Truly, more wonderful than knowing that i am saved, is the knowledge that I've been saved by such a saviour!
posted by "/umin @ 11:56 AM
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