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moments of gratitude

My happy meter is in full swing`` i took Crookshanks to the vet for the first time and he is now microchipped and vaccinated!! i feel like i've reached a huge milestone=) it's now been 3.5 weeks since God blessed him into my life and it's been one huge scratch fest on his part, but many many smiles for lotsa others. I also scrapped the highly questionable supermarket food and replaced it with 'proper' vet food (that costs a ridiculous amount) making me one content mummy, being able to watch her lil' one grow up as healthy as can be=D Now's a good moment to quote the great Paul (from the bible) in that 'it is by the grace of God, I am what I am' -so healthy, so happy and so -miraculously- changed.. i can't thank Him/praise Him/credit Him enough.

Of course heartaches do occur. & often. Indeed i realise that they're one of God's favourite ways of teaching us important truths and that when they occur, we should sit up & take notice coz the end result always turn out for the better. Like today, Nathaniel slammed the door and Crookshank's foot got trapped underneath. I heard it cry so loud and it took so many seconds to push it back that each of his cries pierced my heart so that i was literally shaking with anger by the time i forced it open. I yelled at Nathaniel for not taking more care with the door and why anyone in their right mind would choose slamming over gently shutting, etc etc until i stormed off with Crooks. ..When I finally calmed down, something i've always been told about God finally clicked. He feels our pains as if they are His own. .. i always thought that God, being a spirit of perfect emotions loves us perfectly but ..why would He further subject himself to feel our highly imperfect-and usually v. impractical ones?? Until I felt my cat's pain.
.. One moment i'll never forget is when the vet microchipped it -- as they inserted an instrument the size of a mini knife, it cried so earnestly that any longer and i would've cried with it -or given the vet guy a piece of mind! I'm not a naturally emo person.. it might not take a lot for me to cry but it takes a lot for me to feel the pain of another & know what to do - the pain i was once acquainted with has by now, been so well compensated by God's grace that although i remember how the pain feels, it takes effort to engage the actual emotions.. it just doesn't come naturally anymore. Isn't that in a wonderful-kind-of-way-strange? So when i felt what i felt today, really it's like i've crossed another threshold in terms of relationships *yay!* i can appreciate that fact about God for the first time and i'm truly blessed He chose to reveal that aspect of Himself to me.. and hopefully, when i see others upset it won't take me so long to understand how they're feeling and thus know how not to propel their dipped mood in wrong directions=P

Onto some concrete happenings.. yesterday was Belle's b'day beach party at bondi.. i spent pretty much the whole day talking to waz and about a total of 5 minutes talking to her.. too popular that girl hehe; the weather was v. lovely when storm looked promising.. but left towards 5ish so didnt see the wonder of it unleash -unlike tonight=D tonight was Nathaniel's b'day party and it was the complete opposite, made up of family members as opposed to friends and held in their small, simple, homey house. Both occasions had their moments and i'm glad i went to both - even tho parties aren't my scene. But i love *awww-fests* like weddings and baby showers hehe.. i can't believe what i'm writing- a year ago i would not be talking like this- well, it's at an acceptable time of the night :]

posted by "/umin @ 6:29 PM