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The Cultural Divide

As a native Chinese with an Aussie demeanour, it's hitting home now more than ever, how lonely it is standing at the borderline of 2 totally different cultures.

Living half the time with an aussie family of 5, and the other half with my chinese family of 5 -o.O- is an enlightening, funny, surreal, sometimes uplifting, sometimes overwhelming journey that's almost ying-yang :] tho lately, like ocean tides that come & go, so too do my dispositions which reflect a tired spirit, paralysed all of a sudden by tour de force past, present & future that has suddenly risen like a giant panoramic screen, projecting images all too familiar alongside blanks yet to be recorded.

Instead of getting younger by the year, i feel 60 already; pushed here and there by emotions i can't account for, thoughts that isolate and expectations that cage me in. It's often said that "a trouble shared is a trouble halved". But halving it forever won't erase it. So forget a lifetime; I would just like to forget once and for all, a past that's refusing to let go. I have learned, i have healed and the final stage is letting go..but the 2 way process seems to be arrested in a coma. ..
.. On a happier note, yesterday we went to Shellharbour with its breathtaking rocks. I stood right at the edge of a cliff with waves pounding below, at times, sending a foamy spray of water washing over our heads. Ok, that part was a tad scary so i retreated to higher grounds out of reach from the mini tsunamis, which commanded such a view i could've camped there.. admiring God's creation in a world of my own:) ..the BEST remedy..

posted by "/umin @ 9:43 AM